Time is on my side?

A few months ago, I chose to take a break from employment for a while. I felt like I have been given a second chance to take a break (1st was during college) and was intent on making the best of the time that I have on my hands. But today I had the urge to go out and just scream out loud. Scream at something and yell for nothing. Probably because I do not have a clue to what I would do with my time anymore. I can continue to read, go to the gym, go for a drive, go to the mall, etc. but I am not doing anything productive to make my life meaningful, lest achieving my goals. And to top it all off, I am feeling unmotivated! Stress these days is trying to get to the end of the book not knowing the conclusion and getting caught in traffic at times that can be avoided.

When I was working, I was thinking of ways to make my workdays end earlier so that I can continue my reading, go for workouts at the gym and even catch up with friends over coffee. It is when I have the luxury of time in my hands, that I tend to take things slower and be more relaxed about life going on around me that makes me stray from my former intentions.

Working out at the gym or going for my regular yoga classes have taken a backseat for the moment. It is plain frustrating when only a minimal decline is seen on the weighing scale after much effort and sweat. Coffee with friends? Not possible because our schedules are now different. I have my coffee at in-between rush hour times when most are already at work.

I still love reading. Reading opens up the mind like no other methods are able to. It is when one is well read and knowledgeable that he/she has the confidence and commands respect for his/her thoughts and views. I read whatever I can get my hands on, but my favorite subjects would be current affairs, autobiographies, business and health reads and historical fiction. Every now and then, I lean towards some thriller and romance novels.

Since "time is on my side" I am on a quest to gain as much knowledge and keep up with society going-ons from my readings and that is a personal goal of mine at the moment. While working, we either work towards our own goals or someone else's. I say, work hard and have the discipline to continue on with whatever you are trying to accomplish and bask in your glory of success later, even when it is someone else's goal. You would have gained a wealth of knowledge when you are done. There are no shortcuts and certainly no charity in getting there.

I have intentions to do a lot more because of sudden epiphanies that's been happening around me lately. I realized that while life is short, doing things that feeds your soul feels much better than simply doing things just to pass time. Nevertheless, I am fully enjoying and relishing the free time that I have in my hands before the stress from work piles on again. Maybe the scale will tip lower this time when I tell myself to enjoy my workout instead of obsessing every pound that comes from eating my previous meal!

Cheers.