How much is enough?

Have I done enough? Do I want to do more? Give more?

I am referring here to matters of the heart and what I believed was a relationship but only turned out to be "companionship" for the other.

In times of adversity options may be limited. It may bring with it no solutions or answer, much less closure if that is what you seek. Insurmountable obstacles would simply result in breeding of the worse enemy within oneself, constantly fighting emotions that will only go away when one says "it is time. I am ready".

I hurt because I've allowed the person a place in my heart. State of vulnerability is not faulty as I am not a machine. But then again, no matter how many times others put us down, stomp on us, make us weak, we always pick up the pieces and stand up again. Never fully healed nor "repaired" we try to rise above it. And this makes me think that we may be machines after all.

At the risk of sounding wise...

the doer causing the hurt is also a machine. Knowing all that he's done is morally wrong, but yet continues to pursue and deceive... How does he face the world and go back to life without remorse. Repeat process without guilt. And so it is this life that we accumulate our sins.

He may not know or may not be aware of what he's done...

How does a human hurt another, over and over again without consequences, while he goes home to his family and becomes another person that pretends nothing happened. Perhaps his falling will come later in ways I may never see.

I too, admit my shortcomings and wrongdoings for continue to engage in behaviour and activities that are inappropriate. Misguided and misread all the subtle messages and actions, I actually believed the relationship was headed somewhere and outcome was reassuring.

#karma happens in mysterious ways and I know it will come bite me, and it's probably already happening.

Cheers.

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Is there truly ONE RELIGION?

Going through my blog posts now, I noticed there always seems to be hiatus.. during some years when I was busy going with the motion of work, adventures and life.

But over the years, I've also improved on penning with my nation's language, Bahasa Malaysia. While we were taught in school via this medium, it also allows me an understanding into the culture of the #Malay and sometime the religion #Islam

I've recently read, sharing a thought from Prof Dr Muhaya, who is a Consultant Ophthalmologist by profession, and an inspirational teacher in various subjects, but mostly sharing the beauty of Islam. As teachings of the Prophet Muhammad states that followers should lead their lives for the higher being, Allah S.A.W. All other Needs are secondary as they may deem as greed when uncontrolled.

I get some peace reading her writings but I also question other thought leaders/gurus who share their thoughts on Human Desire; below is an excerpt from a "guru" (which will not be named);

Bahasa Malaysia with translation in parentheses
Kemahuan berlegar pada 3 perkara:
(Desire sums up to 3 things)
- Kebahagian dan Ketenangan Jiwa (happiness and peace of mind)
- Kekayaan (wealth)
- Kebebasan (freedom)

Rasulullah bersabda jauhilah 7 perkara yang membawa kehancuran:
(The Prophet advises humankind to stay away from the 7 sins that bring tragedies)
- Syirik kepada Allah (evading God or higher being)
- Sihir (black magic)
- Membunuh jiwa yang diharamkan kecuali dengan sebab yang dibenarkan agama (killing or taking of live without reason unless justified by religion)
- Memakan riba (accepting of interest in business transactions)
- Memakan harta anak yatim (taking away of funds meant for orphans)
- Lari dari medan jihad (running away from war or religious duty)
- Menuduh perempuan baik berzina (accusing righteous women of adultery)

And so, reading from various sources on a few religions, I noticed similarities in some, and extremities in others. Religion is not an easy subject to broach, I believe everyone seeks peace within in order to function properly and contribute effectively to society.

I am not religious, an Agnostic in fact. Constantly learning and open to learn more.
I, too, am still seeking that peace within.

Cheers.

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Seen and heard from #JohnMayer concert. #Sydney

"You grow up and you just play.. and I'll tell you why I play music. Because I should. That's all, just because I should.

I'm not here to advance any sort of agenda, I don't need more of anything. I just should be playing music and any night I'm not playing music is not as good as a night I am.

And I'm just having such a great time being a #musician 'cos I should be a musician and I enjoy it." ~John Mayer

John Mayer holds a special place in my life, unbeknownst to him of course. Some people associate themselves with the music they listen to, live and breathe them, almost becoming the musicians themselves. I am one of them.

I've gone through the ups and downs of life, just like he has, definitely not in public eyes. I listen to the negatives and take away the positives from the music. I am not ashamed to admit that John Mayer is central to my identity. I feel emotionally attached to him, because from his mistakes and wise words that I learn  to narrow the gap between what I am and suppose to be.

I trust that we will continue to grow together via his music.

Cheers.

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Wandering Soul.

Wandering soul I am.

A wandering soul is a wondering soul. When one passes away, their souls are released / free from the physical body. What if, even when alive, their soul is not at peace, constantly searching?

As natural as human beings can be, we are given aplenty opportunities in life to search for more in life; more wisdom, improved health, improved state of mind, improved wealth, better connections and other things that bring meaning to our short lives here.

An average of 10 - 14 hours at work each day is now a normality, perhaps some profession requires more. And then there are some who work 2 - 3 jobs just to make ends meet.

How then would these individuals have the luxury of time to think about what is good for their souls? Going through the mundane routine, they do not stop or pause to think, is there more to life than work?

Perhaps there are more wanderers that we will ever know. Those who do not have the time to ponder or act on what is rightly, naturally theirs.

Cheers.

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